Finding Gratefulness || Journal Log

Today, I feel… empty, anxious to do something of importance, cabin-fever, and a mix of all other frustrations. I’m done with most of the things I needed to do. Ticked things off my check-list, and now I’m free… free to do nothing. How boring. I realized that God had helped me so much this week and I’m supposed to be happy that I survived the first week of school, and finished my tasks.

Talking this over Shayne, I realized I keep thinking I need to do things, that I’m missing something- and I am. I’m missing gratefulness, contentment and awe. I’m missing to praise God for the good things He had done for me this week. I found so much joy in that realization, because I know I’m now free of my dilemma of “nothingness”. Because now, I know I’m actually full because I have the Lord and He had saved me, helped me, and is guiding me all throughout. Thank you Jesus! Time to celebrate with cheese cake teehee!

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“Escape” Watercolor Painting

I posted this a day before school and I had no drive to work or do anything. Here I am at the end of the week, with all tasks done and I feel… empty? Hahaha Oh Lord, thank you for being ever so patient with your hard-to-please daughter. Forgive me for not seeing your grace.

Thank you for the gratefulness and joy I feel now!

first time trying oil crayon

oil crayon trials (10/22/20, 1:00AM)

I was inspired to do art again by the great Akiane Kramarik. The child prodigy who painted her vision of Jesus at the age of 8. Her most famous painting known as, “The Prince of Peace”.

Since I had to acrylic or oil paints, or water color paper to start painting. I decided to work with what I’ve got. And I remembered my sister stocking the oil crayons at the back of the book shelf. Browsed for a Youtube video. And started trying it out.

No particular shape or form. Just trying it out. And I had fun with it!

His video helped me out

I used BlackBean’s tutorial on the eyes for reference. Then tried to add his techniques as I colored the nose. I realized, I had no good foundation on blending colors. Plus no knowledge on geometric shapes, anatomy, etc. But! I’m not going to delve onto those bits for awhile. And I don’t know if I ever will.

Goal #1: Enjoy the process

Mary dannelle, 2020

Here I go again, trying out something new but never really mastering it. I did a blog post about my frustrations about wanting to do many things. The jack of all trades, but master of none…

best try them all rather than sticking to one!